Thursday, July 15, 2010

Stuck

I hate facebook. It lets me know what everyone is doing, what jobs they have, wedding pictures, etc which inevitably shows me that I am stuck. I haven't finished my thesis, I haven't gotten married, I haven't gotten a job, I haven't had any sort of adventure. I don't know what happened in the past few months but I don't feel that I'm where I should be. I don't feel happy anymore, I don't laugh like I used to and I don't feel like I've accomplished what I should have. I don't even know what Trey thinks about this. Is he happy that we're moving in together? Does he care? Is he happy? Does he care if I'm happy? Am I as important to him as I once was? I feel very alone and very sad and very worthless. That's a horrible word. Worthless. But I think I am.